I stopped writing in November because I had another family dog die actually on my birthday.
Believe it or not I was more prepared if that's possible. Its so strange what got me through the intense pain of my dog Diogie dying. My friend "just happened happened" to pick the perfect book for me out at goodwill. (I don't believe in coincidences it was God helping me out). It was by Melody Beattie who writes a lot of literature about overcoming codependency, but this book was about her son dying at a young age. Her ability to convey her pain at such a deep level really validated and put mine in perspective.
Also I think peoples positive thoughts somehow towards my healing after expressing and sharing my pain so publicly on this blog. It really felt like you all made a difference in my healing experience because the intense weight of it felt shared somehow. So THANK YOU!
So the next step in my journey is opening up my heart to love again. I wasn't sure I could do it and decided I was going to be much more logical and pick out a low shedding dog this time that if possible had no aggressive inclinations like my past 2 rescued breeds mixes.
Boy did that open up a firestorm of debate. Especially when I went to look at puppies at a shop. I don't wish to delve into that cauldron anytime soon, but the good news is my heart told me it could love again when I held this cutie and I cried to remember that mama bear feeling
again.
I guess Im just waiting on Gods timing now to get a new baby. Wish me luck! I need it. The single breed rescue organizations make it very difficult to get through their adoption interview process. Any help or tips are always appreciated😍
Update 2021
My new baby Sammy he's a Chorkie, got him from the pound with the help of my friend Alan in June 2018!
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