So good news first! I finally have a boyfriend. And he's pretty dang amazing. We met when I was trying to meet people to go to the Electric Daisy Carnival. He didnt come, but we had our first date at Hollywood Studios. After our first sweet kiss I knew there was something there. His kisses make me dizzy and feel magical. I hadnt felt that in a while. Since the last time I fell in love. I knew he was special.
I made this blog to write when i have trouble sleeping and mental stuff is keeping me up. Its been a lot of changes lately. I made this blog to talk about difficult subjects I struggle with emotionally. Today I had an adventure where I visit someplace new and that really gives me peace. Its usually nature where I find the best respite.
I was in Winter Garden's historic downtown district. It was a really gorgeous spring day today. These cute little birds were playing in the fountain. So much joy just splashing in the water. They had swinging benches and a trelis with birds chirping all around. It was a little piece of heaven.
It was especially memorable because it reminded me of my dad. He came to Orlando to visit my sisters and I. We rented bikes and rode on the West Orange bike trail. For hours.... I'm up thinking about it. Wishing he still was coming to Orlando to visit every 3 months. We now go and see him in Sarasota and its not the same. It's the sandwich generation when the tables turn and we get the opportunity to give back to our parents. It's hard to have the dynamics change.
Times with my mom had also changed. I lived with her when my twin sister and roomate Katy had Aiden and got married. I really enjoyed her company. I looked forward to telling her about my day as a nurse and seeing what she thought. She was a nurse for over 50 years. I could always go to her for really wise advice.
Sometimes she'd tell me, "Megan I dont want to think for you." She always had this psychic gift for understanding the dynamics without me having to explain them. She knew a lot of what I didnt say too. We went to the psychic city of Cassadaga in Deltona. After a reading with both of us they told me my mother had a strong gift. I did as well but hers was very developed. Lets just say I got away with very little.
I moved out a few months ago. It's been like losing a best friend. I also lived with my older sister Janette. We had become a peaceful little gal gang. I never felt alone and we had seen each other through a lot in our 44 years as family. Looking back it felt like golden years of peace we had earned. I had to move out when it no longer the same.
This was a proud moment when my mother Joyce pinned me when I became a nurse in 2021. Everyone said how cute she was. Her little 5 feet to my 5'9. Her little size 6 feet to my 10.5. Amazing her little 3 lb preemie baby grew up so tall. Such a big personality in a adorable little package.
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